I give up. I surrender. I don't want to fight anymore.
I want to return to my comfort darkness, let it consume me and dissolve me
The most difficult part is not where you fall into pieces. You know that it's just pain, it goes away. The aftermath is the truly terrifying one. You have to restart everything all over again, all that hopes all that dreams knowing one day it will end and then restart.
It is tiring, I am tired.
It doesn't matter anymore if I "can" do it or not. I did it once, I can do it again. But I don't want to anymore, I don't see the point of making a single effort anymore
Let me lay down in the darkness where I can rest
This time I'm staying