it is really difficult to do what i do while hating yourself. i wish i can share and i can talk about this but every time i try it never comes out right. i hate my face. i hate my nose my teeth my awful skin. and i am still fighting a long (probably lost) battle with loving and owning my body.
every single day when i look at my blog, my insta, look at this million pictures of me online... this feeling me of wanting to delete everything rise up . I struggle between wanting to be “there” and wanting to disappeared at the same time.
don’t get me wrong, i love fashion, i love blogging, and i love that my job that pays the bills is the one i love doing.. but still i keep feeling “wrong”. feel like my face is wrong, that my life is wrong, that everything is wrong. i’m torn and struggling and tomorrow i still have to look good in pictures and that kinda sucks